Thousands and thousands of words were cut from the text feed that I used in my book, I Will Walk You Home. My guess is that more than fifty-percent were about marriage. When I wrote the book, things going on in my life felt too raw to make public. I needed time to process everything that was happening and figure out how to keep stepping forward.
Gwen knew EVERYTHING. She was one of two people that I trusted beyond measure. We had the BEST conversations. She made me laugh because she was so freaking uptight. She would say the most direct things ever.
I will always be grateful for my conversations with Gwen. The way she held my hand. The way she laughed. The way she would say that she wouldn't want to be in my shoes. Not with judgement. Just matter of fact.
This particular conversation is one of my favorites. Hope you get a little glimpse of her voice. She shines from heaven.
Tuesday, August 4th, 2015
I have been trying to remember all of your marriage advice. You need to add a book of tips for me to your to do list.
Or I will be yelling at you while I am down here freaking out. We really need to rethink 8 years. We need to get Sookie raised, too.
Haha! Did I give marriage advice? I don't even remember.
Yes! It was brilliant. By the lake.
I would LOVE to see sweet Sookie graduate.
Maybe it was spirit induced! I know we talked about marriage a lot but I don't remember specifically what I said.
You basically said that no one else would marry me.
You were on fire!
I am kind of a lot to handle.
I did NOT say no one else would marry you! That's mean!
Yes, you DID. But, you were making a point! I have a slew of kids!
I actually laughed because you said it. That will be in my speech at your service! Lol.
Oh geez....maybe I did say that.
Nine kids is a lot when they are YOURS, but nine kids that belong to someone else and includes a dad in the picture.....might be a tough sell.
My description is so much more entertaining.
You know I love you right? So many amazing things about you.
True! And the goal is to get people to laugh! So tell it how you'd like!
Did you read @momastery today? The one that talks about shit getting real in marriage?
No. But I have to say that you saying swear words is going to keep me laughing for some time!
(Laughing so hard)
Do I have to delete these texts because I really don't want to!
Are you still doing pot?
I haven't for a long time because I've needed to be able to drive daily. I need radiation to be over.
It did make you hungrier and sleep better.
And reading that text by itself cracks me up...."are you still doing pot?"....never thought in a million years I'd have friends asking me that question!
Yes, but I can't sleep and drive
I know. I love it.
Give me time Leah. I'll be back to the pot in no time!
Cheers to friendship!